The Journey of a Seeker

by K.A.H.

Knowledge. Truth. Wisdom.

The main portion of those who have been drawn to the Cassiopaean material are, like myself,  Seekers of the above. We’ve known that we were Seekers for most of our lives, at one level or another, and have had varying degrees of success in discovering that which we seek. However, some of us could only get so far on this journey, this quest for Knowledge, Truth and Wisdom. There were – and are - still so many questions that remained unanswered.

As Seekers, we have always felt that there was more to our reality than what meets the eye and have been determined to discover, at our own paces, exactly what that “more” was. Personally, I had managed to come to only a few conclusions.

1. Religion is only for those who cannot distinguish between good and evil on their own and have no desire to learn how to do so. It is utilized by those in emotional, spiritual and/or physical crises as a “safety net”; i.e. method by which to escape reality and avoid dealing with same head-on. Religion is the easy way out. It is for the weakened members of society who either do not have the courage or the intellect to search for answers on their own. They have to be spoon fed and religion does this quite well. Religion is not for the Seeker of Truth. Still, although I have difficulty  finding much good with religion, particularly when it has been the cause of so much strife and bloodshed down through the ages, it still can be useful in that the study of it can give us certain clues to our reality. However, this is only possible if religion is looked at from a distance, objectively and with a discerning eye.

2. Reincarnation is part and parcel of human soul development. Without it, we cannot possibly learn everything we must in order to reach the goal of ultimate knowledge and absolute truth. A single lifetime is simply too short in which to accomplish this work. I take the process of reincarnation to be one of the few absolutes in our reality that I am aware of, and I do this because when I first came across the idea, it just sort of “clicked” with me. I experienced one of those rare moments of illumination that I like to call a “quickening”. A stirring of life and energy that comes from the union of self with knowledge. It was a moment so wonderful that it brought tears to my eyes. Accepting this idea made so many other things fall into place. So many other things in our reality were cyclical, it only made sense that life itself should be so as well.

3. There exists a realm outside of our own. A realm that is very different from, but connected to our own. The ethereal realm. The domain of “dead dudes”, other entities (both good and evil), and overseeing that realm and ours is the Universal Consciousness/Soul. My worldview was that we reincarnate any number of times, each time learning a certain number of lessons, until we finally reached the level where our souls had developed ultimate awareness, at which time we would be united with The One – the Universal Consciousness/Soul. Notice that I write in the first sentence, “a” realm outside of our own. The possibility of the existence of several different densities or realms had never occurred to me prior to reading the C’s material. I had assumed that there were only two: the physical and the spiritual/ethereal. I had also not recognized prior to my introduction to the Cassiopaeans the possibility that there might be something “out there” that was preventing us from learning all the lessons we need to learn, thereby keeping us in perpetual reincarnative cycles.

4. Both good and evil exist in the world. What’s more, neither can exist without the other because without opposites, there can be no balance. Without balance in existence, there can be no harmony, and harmony in my mind is synonymous with serenity of soul, happiness, rapture. Still, while recognizing the existence of evil in our reality, I did not realize the full extent of its presence here. I did not realize the full extent of the imbalance that exists in favor of evil. This realization was terrifying and mind-numbing, but I also knew that coming to it was absolutely vital to my survival, as it is to the survival of us all.

Now, while these conclusions were something, they obviously were not enough. At least not for me. They simply didn’t weave the whole tapestry and I was fully aware of this. I knew quite well that there were many, many more pieces to the puzzle, but I had eventually determined that perhaps – just perhaps - I wasn’t meant to see any more of picture at this level of my existence. That perhaps I hadn’t learned the required number of lessons via my lives yet to enable me to find more pieces and put them in their proper places. One cannot start with lesson 1 and then jump to lesson 7 and expect to understand what the instructor is talking about. Lesson 7 might be presented to you and you might listen, but you will not comprehend it fully. I decided that this might be the case with my own life lessons.

But still something nagged at me. If I was aware that there was still something else to be discovered, some additional knowledge to be unearthed, then that very awareness should indicate that I am ready for a further lesson, should it not? Yes, of course, it should. However, I just decided to let things take their natural course and if I happened to uncover that additional knowledge, then it was meant to be. Being a Seeker, the longing was ever present, but I knew that if it was in the cards for me to move forward, I would do so at the right time. I didn’t want to force it. In any case, I became too involved at that point raising a family and trying to launch my writing career to spend much, if any time delving into metaphysical matters. I sensed that when I was ready and the circumstances in my life allowed for it, the road would present itself if it was meant to do so, and I would continue on my journey.

And that’s exactly what happened.

Several years after I had come to the above conclusions, and at a point in my life when things seemed “under control” time-wise and energy-wise, the Cassiopaean material and I crossed paths.

I wasn’t actually looking for anything of a metaphysical nature when I came across the Cassiopaean web site. I had been visiting a Celtic web site, which took me to a site on the Templars, which ultimately landed me on the page of an article Laura had written in her Wave series entitled, “The Priory of Sion and the Shepherds of Arcadia”. So, there I am, reading along when I get to this paragraph:

“Well, let me suggest someone else who could provide a messiah that will literally knock the socks off the peoples of the world: 4^th density Orion STS.”

Come again? Did I read that right? 4^th WHAT? Orion WHAT? I scrunched up my face, shook my head and thought, “Even if I knew what in the hell this woman was talking about, what in the WORLD could it have to do with the Templars, the Priory of Sion, the Holy Grail, etc.???? She’s really lost it. Oh, yeah. Lost it BIG time!”

I was just about to leave the site when I felt something nagging me again. It was Curiosity, of course. The Seeker in me just wouldn’t stay still. She had know. She had to go looking and find out just exactly what was meant by this “4^th density Orion STS” business. She nudged and prodded and goaded until finally, with one great push, catapulted me into the world of the Cassiopaeans. And once you’re there, friends, providing you have the open mind of a Seeker, there’s no going back.

Well, at least, that’s the way it was for me. It was two months ago that I came across that first article and I haven’t been able to keep away from the web site since. After a brief rest, the journey had begun again in earnest.

As I began to go through the material, my initial reaction to it was utter despair, which flung me into a severe depression. I felt a sorrow so deep, it was as though I had lost my own child. Of course, I had definitely lost something. Part of my innocence, my ignorance, and the nice, warm, cozy, little spiritual haven I had created for myself and hidden away in for several years. All of that came crashing down. Knowledge is never brought out into the light of day without considerable effort and pain. Nor does ignorance and denial die so easily.

Still, despite the sadness I felt while trying to get through the material, certain things within it simply “clicked” with me, which made it impossible for me to ignore it or put it all down to the ravings of a lunatic. Again, as had happened when I discovered my belief in reincarnation, I felt a “quickening”. A stirring within. A sense that something very vital was being said here and this produced a profound change in me. I definitely knew that this journey was going to take me someplace very special indeed.

Now, depending upon the subject matter of the particular section of the material I’m reading, I still have those periods of depression, not to mention feelings of deep anxiety, but they are mixed with precious moments of calm, peace and hope. It is these glimpses of something positive, these small snippets of hope that I try to cling to in my moments of terror and sadness.

Misery. Depression.Terror.

Yes, these, too, come with reading the C’s material – or any other work that broadens one’s insight and in the process, breaks down systems of prejudice and denial. Nothing worthwhile ever comes easy, or for free, as the saying goes, and the journey that the Seeker takes on the path towards Knowledge, Truth and Wisdom is most certainly not an easy one. It is one laden with dark forests, winding treacherous roads, traps, and demons at every turn. It is for this reason that the Seeker must accept that fear is an inevitable part of the journey. The one comfort the Seeker has is the knowledge that once the Truth is finally revealed, then fear vanishes entirely, making him a Warrior of the most formidable kind. Unvanquishable. Impenetrable. Incorruptible.

And as Laura herself has quoted from Montalk.com:

“There are only two times when we do not fear a negative experience: when we have no awareness of it, or when we have total awareness. In between no and total awareness, there is fear.”

So, the Seeker must persevere and press on with the quest of discovery, despite the fear. Not only because he knows the glorious reward that awaits him at journey’s end, but because if he does not do so, it will undoubtedly mean his ultimate destruction.

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