I would like to share with the readers of this site the degree to which the Wave material has affected my life. At the risk of sounding self-serving, which I happen to be, I will speak of observations I have made and a little of my personal life.

Although there is always an element of ego in anything I post, I always try to make sure that others can relate to what I say.

The higher worlds are more uncertain then certain, they have a greater degree of freedom and uniqueness, and for this reason each person's unique perspective on their observations of the inner world is of value to others. If I sense that my post is strictly self serving, that is, I want to impress myself and others with how much I know, it won't get posted. There must always be an element of giving to others my own unique perspective to possibly help them. Then again, I could always be deceiving myself.

Although, when I first came across this site, due to false humility, I would never admit it to myself that I could be a conduit thru which negative forces could vector me in a negative way. But as the C's say, nobody is a nobody when it comes to this. That is why my sense of my 'self serving ego' must be below a certain minimum threshold (a subjective determination, of course), before posting. If the matrix is going to influence us, its going to be with our lower ego, our personal selves, that part of us which resonates so strongly with the life energies. In a word, through emotional thinking.

If we rise above our emotions and place our awareness within our critical/discriminative mind, the matrix can't touch us any more than we can grasp an object on top of a house when we are at ground level.

Due to synchronicities that I have experienced with my reading of this site, I long suspected a 'field' that is associated with the material here that one can 'tap', if one studies and contemplates on the Wave Material intensely enough. Synchronicities are neither good or bad in themselves, although, in my opinion, they can be used for either purpose. As the C's say, if I understand them correctly, everything is 'natural' (or of the natural order} and this should include synchronicities. Its just that, in my opinion, there are natural synchronicity's and 'contrived' or manipulated synchronicities by the puppet masters that appear to be natural.

I think that the 'field' to which I referred that is associated with this site, if it exists, is a high potency information field. When we tap this field it possibly puts you in contact with those also associated with this site. This contact, although very brief and momentary, possibly allows those in contact with this field to experience, if but only briefly, the same PRESENT MOMENT simultaneously. It is within this linkage of present moments, in my opinion, that possible contact occurs between individuals and the related natural synchronicities between them. Of course this is only part of the picture, there is, no doubt, much more associated with this potential energy field. For example there must be different types of synchronicities, such as those associated with our contact with our own future. I'm sure the study of synchronicities is a science in and of itself.

The Wave Material has been the catalyst which has shifted my outlook of the world in ways I never imagined. I am still guessing here, although I have seen facts in my own life that lead me to speculate that tapping the aforementioned potential energy field, if it exists, results in a kinetic pulse of high potency but very short duration, where if used rightly, can galvanize one into action. However, in my case, this high potency pulse is soon discharged due to my lack of inner Being. For this reason I cannot sustain the action that this energy impulse initiates.

In short, this high potency pulse of energy is often dissipated as enthusiasm. Enthusiasm is cheap, like sentimentality. Wait one moment please and let me reach into my pocket and see what I have............... Ok, I have 2 pennies, a half eaten gum drop, and some pocket lint. Yessir, that'll buy me 50 pounds of enthusiasm-- at retail prices!

Inner Being is an 'inner able ness', an inner vehicle, an inner body vessel, that can hold this kinetic discharge, store it like a capacitor, and use this energy by one's inner Will; that is, when the Will decides to do so, for a specific purpose over a sustained period of time.

Without inner Being to hold or contain this energy, the inner Will cannot use it because this energy is not available to it, since it is soon dissipated in the river of Time.

To put it another way, this inner Being body, which must be developed, can hold our inner soul energy back from the gravitational pull of Time, allowing the inner Will to discharge this energy into actualization only when the inner Will DECIDES to do so.

The inner Will is inherently intelligent; its not stupid, it knows that if it is to discharge its very valuable soul energy into the very practical world of 3d, then it should seek a practical return for its investment, so it can use this energy to build the soul that it must 'live in' so it can use it to work out its destiny within the existing world(s) of God's creation.

 Inner Being is a higher energy 'enduring' body built by our own 'willed' conscious efforts, this inner body existing or enduring within the inner space or dimension of ETERNITY.

Eternity can be viewed as a stratified layer of potential energy fields each layer being of a higher potency then the previous. Within this higher inner space or field array, lie the multiplicity of potentialities of any existent whole. There is always a tension between the multiple potentialities of an existent whole, in Eternity, and the actualization of a single potentiality within this array, in time. It can be said, in my opinion, that the field array of Eternity always feels the gravitational pull of time thru any existent whole. Our inner Being, if sufficiently developed, allows us to 'hold' these potentialities in abeyance until the inner Will chooses to actualize a single one of them in time.

Possibly, this is what real Masonry was all about, the building of the inner Soul, before it was screwed up by STS influences. However, in spite of my lack of inner Being, this high potency energy has shifted or realigned my outlook on the world, and what I have been seeing is not a pretty sight.

Much about what I am about to express I have seen before. However the very slight shift in my assemblage point (to use a Castaneda term), from my studying the Wave Material, has allowed me to see these things in a compressed time frame.

Without getting mystical about the assemblage point (although it has great depth in meaning), it can be compared, in my opinion, to my viewing the outside street from an inside window at a particular angle whereby I can only view part of the street from that particular angle. A slight shift in angle or perspective from the inside window vantage point would now allow me to see more of the street as compared to the old vantage point. This is a simple practical explanation, in my opinion, of a shift in my assemblage point which resulted in me being able to see aspects of the matrix that I did not see before.

When the assemblage point begins to shift from a fixed position in the mechanical parts of our nature into the more interior realms of our psyche, it begins to have more freedom of movement since our interior realms are more free and less fixed. This allows our perspective on things to be viewed from more angles--the more angles we view something at the more 'real' view we have of it. So to those who say Castaneda's idea on assemblage point is a bunch of bunk-- think again.

For me personally, due to changes that I have made in my life, as a result of the greater common sense afforded to me by studying the Wave Material, the attacks from family and friends is escalating, a complete repeat of what I experienced many years ago when involved with the Gurdjieff work. It's as if my time with the Gurdjieff work and what is presently occurring are two 'events' or 'Quantum packets' that touch each other in a higher space.

 For those experiencing the same thing as me concerning attacks by friends and family this is what I found works for me. I am doing my best to 'hide in plain sight' in relation to friends and family. By this I mean, that as I proceed further into the development of my soul growth to always APPEAR (as best as I am able) as if nothing is out of the ordinary to others. This must be done while modifying my lack of visibility to concerned parties and keeping it to a minimum. You see, when we hide from friends and family (in the usual sense) we become more visible than ever. This increased visibility puts one in the crosshairs, in my opinion, for attacks by the matrix.

The matrix, in my opinion, is very subtle. Imagine a leaf floating on a river that is temporarily stopped by a rock on its travels. It only takes a slight 'nudge' to dislodge the leaf and send it back on its way down the river. This, I think, is what the matrix does. It vectors thoughts into the heads of our attackers, at key points, which triggers emotional/mental feedback loops within them (emotional thinking) that is vectored towards us. In other words it 'nudges' them. When it does this it uses a knowledge of their psychology, personal history, and their weaknesses to its best advantage.

As I said, this very slight shift in my assemblage point has allowed me to see things that have been painful.

For instance, wherever I look, I see lies. I see walls of lies--within myself and others. We live one big lie modulated with a multiplicity of secondary lies. These opaque walls block the light of inner truth from our awareness. These lies are a deflection mechanism, a mechanism to deflect the inner light of truth from our very souls into the delusional world of the matrix, to feed the puppet masters.

We live in a sea of lies.

Also, wherever I look I also see programs, programs and nothing but programs. In my opinion, the electricity that drives these programs is the emotional energy generated from wishful thinking. The data that these programs manipulate are the mechanical thoughts in my own lazy mind. The end result of the programs are the illusions that I mistake for real data.

This false data, that is, my belief systems, create real illusions. Real ILLUSIONS, when I believe in them, take my very real emotional energy and creates my DELUSIONS. These delusions refracts this energy from being sent back directly to the real world, and sends this energy to build a false universe, a subjective consensual reality that we ASSUME to be objective, a universe that is built solely upon my (our) delusions, these delusions held together and energized by our real emotional energy that we feed it with.

In other words, our delusions subvert or use our GOD given power of choice, to CHOOSE to send creative energy, an energy that is a coalesced part of the nature of our very souls, out from itself to CREATE the matrix. For, if our very soul did not have creative energy as an integral part of its essential nature we would not have the POWER of choice at all. Also, because of this creative energy that is a coalesced element within our very souls, we can make contact with the source or 'mother lode' of this energy while the puppet masters cannot since their awareness is always vectored in the opposite direction, that is, towards non-Being.

The puppet masters cannot be creative because they have rejected it. That which steals and manipulates cannot create.

Everything we do in life is a program. We go to school. get jobs, go to parties, socialize, eat, sleep, all sexual activity, get married and have kids--all programs. However just as our inner psyche is layered like an onion, the outside layer being the most mechanical and the inner layers less mechanical with greater degrees of freedom, our programs are layered also, some being causally deterministic, that is strictly mechanical, others being more free, yet still, but to a lesser degree, mechanical.

 Since the inner programs are more free with more of a Will of their own, if they are of a negative type, they will be more difficult to modify then the strictly outer mechanical programs. Thus, although we must never stop looking inside; when we wish to take ACTION it starts with modifying our outer mechanical nature (or life) all the while OBSERVING our inner (less mechanical) nature.

The most mechanical program is our work life. We go to work to make the money to buy the food to give us strength to go to work to make the money to buy the food to give us strength to go to work............

And we idiots actually think we are going somewhere. I use the word idiots in the everyday meaning of the word.

For those of you familiar with Gurdjieff and his 'toasts to the idiots', I don't use the term 'idiot' the way he did. In my opinion, he used the term idiots in relation to his students as a means to teach them about character types, and used the term idiot because we are VIEWED, or perceived as idiots by family and friends when we walk the path for soul growth.

Getting back to programs, I have observed that most of us do not have real feelings, we have programs that make us THINK we do. All real feelings are those of an impersonal nature. We think we love a friend or a spouse when in reality we love ourselves THROUGH someone else. We only 'love' them to the extent to which we can love ourselves thru them.

In short, since we love others through ourelves, and love is selfless, then the self cannot love. The self can only love itself. Thus, to think we can love is a delusion.

Remember that last person who you invited to your house? When they left they didn't steal anything--Why? Because, I'm sure you have honest friends. But are they honest because they are truly honest, or did they not steal from you because they are programmed to think of themselves as honest by not stealing from you.

Now put this same person in a nasty work environment, where everyone is stabbing one another in the back to get ahead. Is he/she still honest or do they subvert (steal) the truth in this situation, like everyone else, and put someone else's job in jeopardy to secure their own position? Probably the latter.

Thus, in my opinion, honest people are honest only insofar as they are programmed to be so.

We have the ambition program that makes us compete with others, thinking that we are getting ahead by having some poor slob get behind us.

We have the children program where we are led to believe that the sole purpose of life is the actualization of the biological mandate-- the begetting of children. Like a soldier bee after losing its stinger to protect the hive and then dying shortly afterwards, we lay around to die after we raise our children. Our purpose has been served -- more robots for the hyperdimensional puppet masters. When I was very young I noted this particular observation when I would look at peoples houses and I would see them not as a place where people lived but as places where they lay around to die--- I saw people's houses as big coffins.

I have observed old people these days---- have you noticed? They appear LOST.

I have observed people in general, especially young people. What I saw shocked me to the bone. I see a powder keg of suppressed sexuality most particular in young people but it applies to people of all ages. People are thinking about sex to a far greater degree then their actual involvement with it. Its only a matter of time before the bubble bursts and we are inundated with sexual psychopaths, as if there weren't enough already. Everywhere you look we are being bombarded with sexual images. I have not watched TV in over 2 months to avoid this bombardment.

I have observed the moral decay -- how men and especially women have degenerated sexually and morally. Women have become especially 'easy' these days sexually. Now please understand I have taken advantage of this very thing (I'm not trying to be funny here) but I'm presently talking about what I see and not who I am. The man looks to the women as a moral compass, in my opinion. The very moral fabric of our society is held together by the women, in my opinion. Once we lose the women to moral decay, and its happening right now, big time, we are doomed.

The above condition with women, in my opinion, is because of us men. We have not fulfilled our role as men, we act like spoiled immature children (including myself), we couldn't care less about any 'moral compass' within our woman and benefit from it. We will disappoint the women at every turn in this respect until she says: Screw it! If he insists on acting this way, then, well, so can I!

We men, in my opinion, have ourselves to blame.

Next time you speak to someone and are interacting with them try to stand apart from your reactive self and look at that person, really look at them, like a cop looks at a potential suspect. Go deep into yourself and watch that person react to you during your interaction, observe them from those parts of yourself that are closer to your Will, deeper within you, those parts that maintain their integrity during the interactive process.

This is what I see. I see shells. Pattern motif shells kind of like a stained glass window in a church. The person is not there. What I also see is myself reflected in that other person, because that person would not have that particular pattern motif shell if I was not who I was. I see a cross section of the other person, but I don't see the other person.

I also find that when I work for this inner separation described above, real impersonal feelings can enter the inner space opened from this separation and connect me to this person in a way I had not thought possible.

Everywhere I look I see 'shells of reality'. I see forms but no content within these forms--only emptiness. Our lives are shells, our delusions are the shadows of these shells.

I see how people act like they are going to live forever not realizing, or not wanting to realize, that we are on a train track called life and there is a train coming down at full speed and will crush us with absolute certainty at any possible moment. Everything in life is a distraction to prevent us from being cognizant of our deaths. We live a life of desperation, this desperation being fueled by our expectations of a nonexistent future. Everything I see is designed to have us live in the future or past. However, when we die we die in the moment. So, in our stupidity, we know we will die in the moment but we still refuse to live in it.

All I can say is I can't turn off what I see , although I don't wish to, even if I could. Good or bad, its knowledge. I don't see it all the time, certainly, but when I do see it I can't find an off-switch. The only off switch is my own sleep.

The only way do endure seeing the horror of the matrix is to choose to live the life as a warrior-- and this is precisely what I have chosen to do.

I have spent the last 5-6 yrs (without fully realizing it until now) preparing to live as a warrior again. I now realize that it doesn't matter if I lose everything, my money, prestige, honor, security, possessions. All that matters is that we live as warriors, seeking knowledge and soul growth. Whatever happens while we walk this hazardous path, happens---so be it.

 It is obvious to me that Ark and Laura have always been warriors. My guess is they probably never thought of themselves as warriors until probably recently, but in my opinion they were warriors from day one. They never thought of themselves as warriors because to THINK you are something means you are not that which you think you are. They, in my opinion, have come to the REALIZATION that they are warriors.

For a warrior is a man or woman who has true Faith, and those who have faith never think they have faith, they simply live it.

So if we should fail this website by not helping with information,  monetary contributions, or our own research and this website should be no more, and this is very possible, at least Ark and Laura can say on their last day, their last hour, their last moment, that they did their impeccable best to fulfill the pattern of their destiny and they can leave in peace and with no regrets...........and not look back.

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